What Was, What Is Now

I've lost control
of myself and my thoughts
Your lies pour off your tongue
so smoothly
like the r's you're so proud of
being able to roll
the tongue that I'd like
nothing better to cut off
for so many reasons
for the disgust i feel
and i want to destroy
everything that once
or could every remind me
that such things exist
as smooth talking liars
that like nothing better
to hurt people
but maybe in the end
it's built into your DNA
like height of your body
or the color of your skin
maybe it's my fault
for being so trusting
and for wanting to believe
in something
i guess my dad never taught me
shit
after all his broken promises
you would of thought
that i would of learned at a younger age
but no
you come along
and changed every fucking thing
who i am
how i think
what i believe
who i trust
you changed it all with
a few smooth lies
i gave up one of the best things
because of you
now i feel so sick
butterflies replaced
with knives that kill
i can't believe
anything this world has to offer
any more
so now
with my final good-bye
i just have to say
i wish you weren't my
greatest addiction ever
and I almost wish
i never ever met you