Smiles Can Hurt

The laughter that passes my lips,
and into your ears.
The smile that,
lingers on these lips,
the same ones,
that you once kissed.
But now those kisses,
are only a dream.
The memories,
are faded,
to a dull gray.
How I wish I could have,
just another week,
another month with you!
I miss you terribly.
To the point of,
almost physical pain.
Yet..
yet,
I should move on,
put the memories and feelings,
into a box,
and store it away,
so that some day,
I can take it out,
and analyze it,
after any,
and all wounds are healed.
Maybe then,
I'll see the wounds as beautiful,
or maybe I'll see them,
as ugly reminders,
of a bad forgery of love.
But,
the thing is,
I don't want to let go.
I can't give up.
What if,
what if this is true,
soul mateness,
what if we,
really do belong together,
cause we keep getting pulled,
together,
or maybe.
this is just a,
one way feeling.
'cause you never tell me,
you  never really tell me,
how you're truly feeling.