I Lie

I lie to myself another day,
pretending I'm alive.
I'm fully alive.
I dance,
I smile,
I complain,
I love,
I fuck,
I care.
I'm alive.

And I lie to you another day,
who did you think me to be?
This perfect little angel?
Ha!
You've been taken for a fool.
If I'm any angel,
I'm a dead one,
dying and decayed.

I lie,
this is my shell.
I lie.
I lie.
I was never alive.
This is all an illusion,
a bundle of confusion.

I'm lying about everything.